Virility [ Letter Index ]

I am a builder, 57, at present I live with 2 women that don't know anything about the existence of each other. I live with one downtown, and with the other in the country. Using the excuse of my job I go back and forward, between one and the other. The first one, 37, from Holland, has a refined, strong character. The second. 40, with which I have a son, is kind and easy-going.
I also have a good relation with my first Italian wife and our 2 grown up Sons. My ex-Italian wife decided years ago to apply for divorce due to my infidelity. I can't live with one only woman! Paradoxically. in order to be faithful I need to betray. Each woman enriches a man. All of them in an unique way. I am a generous person: I give my sentiments, my body and wallet. I'd never want my women to miss out on anything they need. Sometimes I also find time to go to night clubs and have a wild night out with an entreneuse.
In a same day I managed to make love to 3 different women. Sometimes I wonder during the night! "How long will you be able to go on like this Giorgio?"

Giorgio

The fact that you think that you won't be able to manage the situation rings a bell. Why should you not follow your instinct? Are you challenging your own physical capacities or the time that goes by?
When men grow older sometimes feel sexual decline as a loss of social role. image and identification. In this case sexual needs may become superior to the real ones. You live a patriarch role but I'm not sure you have the same privileges, same power or you are slave of it. What price are you paying?
May be stress and responsibility, rushing from one side to the other.
Your instinct to betray, beyond regenerating the "menage", makes you feel more virile and allows me to imagine the need to avoid the total feminine dependence as to compensate your extreme devotion and generosity. As a conclusion again a proof of virility.
Behind the corner lies always the fear of failure. Right next to the dream of omnipotence, a subtle threat.